Just Dissappointment

I'm so tired of constantly being disappointed.
SO! No longer will I "put myself out there." All it ever seems to lead to is Le Shit.
Yes.
Le Shit.
I'm trying out this new thing, BEING FRENCH.
But not really.
New Year's Resolutions:
1)Quit being a little bitch
2)Pull up my fucking grades
3)Tell people things that I've always wanted to never tell them, but never had the balls to do so
4)????
5)Profit
(Those are obviously placeholders, except for the last one, profit is always nice)
But I finally DID actually tell someone how I felt, and it was something I honestly never had any intentions on doing. But, I guess that's what I get for drinking. NO MORE OF THAT!
Hmm.. what else do I need to vent about?
/lil' bitch on
Crying. It's one thing I've never been good at. But lately I've been feeling like it's been just right there behind my eyes, I just can't do it. There's so much more shit that could be happening to me now that is way worse but isn't. But I still want to give up. For good/ever. Yeah that, the cowards way out. I don't honestly think I ever could, because I made a promise that I never would, and I don't intend on breaking any promises to that person anytime in the foreseeable future.
/lil' bitch off
That's all I can think of, but I think I'm going to make an effort to post here once a week at least. It's a good release. I mean, unless anyone other than like, martin read this >.> <.< shit time to remove followers, if I can. yeh. that.